Musings from Kreitsauce’s Wife

I have been keeping a journal through our adoption process to record my feelings as we go through the process. Looking back over the journal, I see various feelings, fear, sadness, excitement, longing… As a person who wants to adopt, the wait and the red-tape seems endless at times. But it is all worth while when thinking about having a child who will be your own. With these thoughts, I began thinking about how God must feel about us – His adopted children.

God knew that we would be a part of His family; however, He also had to wait until we were willing to come to Him… He had such a great gift for us, but we had to be willing to take that gift. Sometimes the wait for Him is very, very long.

I think that is sometimes how parents who want to adopt feel. We feel that we have such a wonderful gift to give a child, yet the wait is very long at times. Then once we do adopt a child, we do not always understand why they are not jumping with joy to be adopted into OUR family (which we, of course, think is perfect).

I think that we, as God’s children, can be so in awe of what God did to adopt us. He gave up His ONLY Son so that He could have me! What an amazing thought. It is hard, as a finite human, to understand why God would choose me when the price for me was so very high.

We have had people joke with us that instead of holding the hours of labor over our child’s head as so many biological parents do when they are angry with their children, we could instead hold the massive amount of paperwork and time over our adopted child’s head. How much more could God hold over our heads – He had to turn His back on His only Son because of the sin that Jesus took on Himself.

I think when we stop to truly consider how much our God has done for us, it should make us nothing but thankful and encourage nothing but good behavior from us as His adopted children.